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Vast office windows and shady oak trees,
soft ukulele tunes and the flow of black ink,
an overcast day and a melancholy yet content feeling.

The vintage bead necklace from India around my neck,
the thought of learning one more language,
and going back to Italy someday for more gelato.

Being surrounded by the books I've hoarded
and imagining I'll read them all eventually.

Making to-do lists and checking things off,
a collection of seashells,
my late grandmother's quilts,
and the knowledge that I get it all from her.

The cat napping somewhere
in the safe home I've provided to her
so she probably doesn't even remember the street
or the crowded animal shelter I found her in.

The ghost of a smile I have even on my worst days,
thanks to the people who give me a reason
to put on my shoes and get out of my head,
and being told my face transforms
when the corners of my mouth and eyes are lifted.

The awareness that although sometimes
I feel insignificant,
I am leaving my footprints in the dirt
and someday
I will be a fossil
with all these secrets contained
within my petrified shell.

And knowing that someday I might be a big oak tree
providing inspiration and refuge to some future misfit
who needs their own reasons to keep on living.
The Things that Keep me Breathing
Chronic depression is a daily battle.  Even during good months/years, there are days that are really, really hard to get through.  When I had one of those days a few weeks ago, I wrote a list of reasons to live.  This week I decided to turn the concept into a poem.
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*awkwardly shuffles onto webpage*

Hiiii, guys and gals!  I'm not dead.

It's been over a year since my last post, and I just wanted to reach out and see if anyone is still here.  I miss my friends from this site, although I'm in touch with a couple of you via Facebook.  If you want to talk, hit me up.  And if you're reading this post, I want you to link me to one of your favorite things from the last year that you've submitted.  Writing, photography, a drawing, a particularly poignant journal post, whatever.  There's no way in hell I can catch up on absolutely everything, but I really want to see a little of everything I've missed.

My depression has been better overall (but it's still there, and I still have really bad days, so I'm in therapy again), and I've been a lot more active offline.  I'm returning to college next month after three years away (different college, of course, you couldn't pay me to go back to the old one!). I've started hanging out with an old friend a lot and made a bunch of new ones, and we all do a weekly tabletop game group (Dungeons & Dragons and the like).  I'm writing a campaign for D&D right now and reading a lot and setting up my very own office because we've moved into a HUGE house (renting).  It's the first time I've had my very own space in 5 years, and it feels amazing.  If this doesn't turn out to be a quick single post then disappear for another year thing, I'll show y'all a picture when it's a little more done.  Right now there's one more bookcase to assemble, and walls to paint, and BOOKS TO ORGANIZE.

I also have internet for the first time in over a year.  Yep.  You read that correctly.  The apartment we were in kind of screwed us on that front, so we just didn't get an internet package and survived on mobile data hot spots.  It wasn't fun.

It's weird trying to sum up the last year of my life in a couple of paragraphs, but there you go.  That's pretty much it.  :giggle:

Hope you're all doing well!

Love,
Kae
  • Listening to: Indie music
  • Reading: Harry Potter series (reread)
  • Watching: EVERYTHING, BECAUSE I HAVE INTERNET
  • Playing: The Last of Us (replay)
  • Eating: Arby's
  • Drinking: Pepsi
*awkwardly shuffles onto webpage*

Hiiii, guys and gals!  I'm not dead.

It's been over a year since my last post, and I just wanted to reach out and see if anyone is still here.  I miss my friends from this site, although I'm in touch with a couple of you via Facebook.  If you want to talk, hit me up.  And if you're reading this post, I want you to link me to one of your favorite things from the last year that you've submitted.  Writing, photography, a drawing, a particularly poignant journal post, whatever.  There's no way in hell I can catch up on absolutely everything, but I really want to see a little of everything I've missed.

My depression has been better overall (but it's still there, and I still have really bad days, so I'm in therapy again), and I've been a lot more active offline.  I'm returning to college next month after three years away (different college, of course, you couldn't pay me to go back to the old one!). I've started hanging out with an old friend a lot and made a bunch of new ones, and we all do a weekly tabletop game group (Dungeons & Dragons and the like).  I'm writing a campaign for D&D right now and reading a lot and setting up my very own office because we've moved into a HUGE house (renting).  It's the first time I've had my very own space in 5 years, and it feels amazing.  If this doesn't turn out to be a quick single post then disappear for another year thing, I'll show y'all a picture when it's a little more done.  Right now there's one more bookcase to assemble, and walls to paint, and BOOKS TO ORGANIZE.

I also have internet for the first time in over a year.  Yep.  You read that correctly.  The apartment we were in kind of screwed us on that front, so we just didn't get an internet package and survived on mobile data hot spots.  It wasn't fun.

It's weird trying to sum up the last year of my life in a couple of paragraphs, but there you go.  That's pretty much it.  :giggle:

Hope you're all doing well!

Love,
Kae
  • Listening to: Indie music
  • Reading: Harry Potter series (reread)
  • Watching: EVERYTHING, BECAUSE I HAVE INTERNET
  • Playing: The Last of Us (replay)
  • Eating: Arby's
  • Drinking: Pepsi

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Kae
Artist | Literature
United States
I am currently pursuing a double major in Psychology and Spanish as a college student in her mid-twenties, and writing in my copious free time. I think of myself as a Renaissance woman--pretty good at a lot of different things, but perhaps not a true master of anything.
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hopeburnsblue Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2015  Professional Writer
Thanks for the :+fav: on "Letters to Myself," Kaelyn! :iconheartglompplz:
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2015   Writer
You're very welcome, Mel! :heart:
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Clockchat Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014
Hello! Thank you so much for making a favorite out of my deviation "Remover!" That was a looong time ago, but I've been practically extinct from dA up until yesterday, and couldn't recall if I had thanked you...Better safe than sorry! Thanks a plenty, friend!
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betwixtthepages Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
We all know you're wonderful, but in case you've forgotten for a moment, here's a reminder--

YOU DID SOMETHING AWESOME TODAY! 

:eager: by darkmoon3636 :squee: Party High-five! Party :squee: :eager: by darkmoon3636

To see what nice thing you've been accused of doing (and who else is being recognized), find the widget by the same name on my profile page!

Helpful hint:  It's above the Stamp Box of Doom!

Have a wonderful rest of your day!
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Jade-Pandora Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2014
:iconcakeplx: mmmm, Happy Birthday, Kaelyn! :lmao: "all 5 of you" 2 funny!
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014   Writer
Thank you!  :giggle:
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AutumnLeaf167 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday to you!
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014   Writer
Thank you!  :heart:
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2014   General Artist
happy birthday, dolly :huggle: <3
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014   Writer
Thank you so much, lovely!  :hug:
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